It's weird because I could be having the best day ever, I Could be laughing, I could be doing what I love the most with the people I love the most. But - I will still be suicidal. I don't have to be hurting myself but I will still be suicidal. I can't remember one … Continue reading THE TRUTH.
Tell me what the fuck I did wrong? Tell me what the fuck I did so wrong to deserve to feel like this! I battle with my own god damn thoughts! Now I'm at a stage where I feel I can't take no more, where I feel I can't control it. I have gone through … Continue reading Tell Me What The F*ck I Did!
I will be the first to admit that I have flaws. Like fuck I have A LOT of flaws. I have a temper, I like things to go a certain way - my way, I get addicted to things easily, I get attached too quickly too. I love too much, I give too fast, I … Continue reading Borderline Mind or Minds.
This is my ileostomy bag, and this is what makes me beautiful. This kind of beautiful might be different than what society considers beautiful. This kind of beautiful does not consider external beauty. After so many years of constant pain and hopsital admissions, I thought I was never going to be able to live a … Continue reading Me&TheBag!💜
Real quick update. I'm back again, I know its been a little while.. But I am two weeks post op.. So I haven't really been in the mood to write or do anything too be honest. I have Crohns Bowel Disease and so I have spent a lot of time in and out of hospital … Continue reading Quick Update: Why I’ve Not Been Around..
I am not sorry. I am not sorry for the way that I feel. Why should I apologise for something that I go through and have been going through for the last 10 years. I've looked for help, they tell me to speak, I speak and i'm still the same. I get told to write … Continue reading I’m NOT Sorry! *Trigger*
*TRIGGER WARNING HUNS* Here i am again.. I need to get it out, i need to speak. I'm in a dark place again, i'm struggling.. Im hearing voices everyday and night. Its testing me. Im hating my self, hating everything about me. It's hard to explain because i don't know why i feel this way.. … Continue reading Where i’m at right now.. #trigger