It's hard to find the strength to cover up the truth of how your really doing and how your really feeling. It's hard to act like your ok and you've got things together when you haven't. It's not easy to put a smile on when your not happy. I used to cover up every tear, … Continue reading Will this ever end.
The more time goes on, the harder things seem to get. The darker my mind gets, The heavier my heart feels and the more tears I cry. I have always been that person who will keep things bottled inside, and keep pretending everything is fine and pushing everything to the back. The truth is I'm … Continue reading I’m Not OK.
My heads a mess, my minds a mess. Im feeling pretty low. I cant pin point where things went wrong or why I dont know what I did too to be this way or too feel the way I do. I thought that I was past the urges, I thought I was past the want … Continue reading Im not sure who I am anymore or where I am at..
I've been feeling depressed and feeling pretty damn lonely recently. People ask me how I'm doing and I can't answer the questions. I've been distancing myself from everyone recently. How can I tell the ones I love the most that I'm losing control, that I feel so ashamed of the thoughts I've got inside my … Continue reading WHY? TRIGGER WARNING!!!
Last year In November I found out I was Pregnant. I can't put into words how happy I was, How whole I felt and like I finally was needed and had a purpose. That line on the Pregnancy test was like a lifeline for me. It was one thing I always wanted, I have always … Continue reading A piece of me is missing.. *TRIGGER*
It's weird because I could be having the best day ever, I Could be laughing, I could be doing what I love the most with the people I love the most. But - I will still be suicidal. I don't have to be hurting myself but I will still be suicidal. I can't remember one … Continue reading THE TRUTH.
Tell me what the fuck I did wrong? Tell me what the fuck I did so wrong to deserve to feel like this! I battle with my own god damn thoughts! Now I'm at a stage where I feel I can't take no more, where I feel I can't control it. I have gone through … Continue reading Tell Me What The F*ck I Did!